The Life of Derek

Hello guys..I think you must have been going into my online blog but have been disappointed coz i have not blogged for a freaking long time. Ohh well...i have been so bloody busy with my work and i dont even have time to do anything for myself.

Hmm...time to reflect back on the past month. Lots of things to say. Life has been pretty fair to me so far even though work is up to my neck. Trying to be positive all the time and bring laughter to the ppl ard me especially my camp mates and my Mdm as we head towards ISO Certification. Really hope we will achieve our goal and we can start to turn off our power brain for the next 2 months at least.

Between me and my girl..things have been pretty good. I can see she is trying to accomodate to the busy schedule i have and trying her best to be more understanding towards me. Dont worry my dear, i can see for myself and i will know how to take care of you. I will miss u when u go for ur long deserved holiday break in Taiwan.

Now for my studies...I have applied for a course in ITE (Basic Fundementals of Hydraulics) and im still contemplating if i should do a short course in Mechanical Engineering. Sigh...from my previous blog, i think you would have heard me mentioning abt doing something i really want during my army time. My plan was to do an Specialist Dip in Branding. But alas, my dad intervened and was not happy with my plan before i complete my liability to my nation!!! I was screwed by him and once again i decided to drop my Branding Course. I juz want to add something here...taking over and helping my dad in his business is not something i want. I gave up my dreams of working in a hotel for him. I rejected the chance to study Hospitality in Temasek Poly for HIM, i took up Marketing beccoz of him and now im doing something i dont like becoz of HIM once again!! Y!!?? Y!!!? Y!!?? I dont know how will i feel when i turn 50 !! I would sit down and ask myself..WHAT IF !!?? I could live my life with regrets and think abt what i really wanted to do. Pls dont get me wrong abt me not interested in helping my dad. I juz feel becoz im his only SON and its only RIGHT i fulfill my responsibility and help him continue his business. I will try my best and hope God guides me through the uncharted waters when i finally help my dad with his business. ITS NOT A CHOICE I HAVE !!! Oh well, i hope God speaks to me soon and tell me whats the best path for me to take.

Dad and Mum, if u happen to read this blog somehow, dont worry abt me. Im doing fine and this blog allows me to vent my fustration. Im old enough to think and i have decided on what's best for the family even though im not living my dreams. I will come good. Mum and Yee Yee, continue to pray for me and inform God to give me wisdom, the strength, the determination, the drive and the discipline to allow me to make sound decisions to continue the success my dad have when i finally take over.

Ohh well...i think thats enough for today and at the end of the day, I juz another boy who is trying to live his dream but has made sacrifices to the family to make everyone happy. There is this saying that you can't please everyone in the world but at least please yourself to ensure happiness. Hmm..i beg to differ and i think i would please my dad and mum even though the path i take will not make me happy. Important thing is that they remain happy and feel less worried abt me.

Time to send a msg to God before i log off..Err..His email add would be Http://www.God_loves_derek@heaven.com .... haahahhaa..to think i can come out with such address at this point of time...Im fine...Dont worry abt me ppl...

God, my life will always be in ur hands and i have complete trust in You. Guide me through the winding road ahead and I believe You will help me make the right decisions when i come to another crossroad of my life. Thank You and continue to bless everyone ard me.